2/18/2008

Today I wasn't in class and Wednesday I won't be either. My grandmother has passed away today and if anyone notices the time stamp on this, I obviously can't sleep.

Thinking about my grandmother has made me realize that she is my idol. I know I always have looked up to her and wanted to be like her but the more I think about it she is really my idol. And in the context of this course, she has been the strongest female presence in my life. She has kept us all happy and healthy over the years and I am truly thankful for being blessed with her life in mine. She has taught me so much, to cook, to sew, to garden, and most importantly to listen. When she was ever asked for advice at like a bridal shower she almost always replied, "It takes two to argue, and one to listen, if no one is listening then you get no where." She was always listening. At Sunday dinners as we all talked about our weeks and experiences, she listened...and answered the questions that were posed to her. She always got what she wanted to done. Granted I still don't like cleaning a house top to bottom, but that's what we would do, and no matter what obstacle came out way we figured it out and got it done. She lived her life so mine would be better. Granted this isn't what Feinberg necessarily teaches but she represents the attributes that sometimes go unsaid, but not unnoticed.
I'll rap this up, since everyone probably thinks I'm off point, but screw you anyways.

To my wonderful grandmother.....I miss you so much. I feel like there is a hole left in me that only time will heal. I love you so much. I love you Grandma.